Hundred twenty-one

Working in compartments. I found myself distracted by small incidents. These incidents keep hitting me like waves and spoil an entire day. or am I fooling myself, because I don't want to work, just act like distracted? I need to introspect myself. Introspection is like plumbing work, you need to take out dirty things from the clogged pipeline. When you dive into your own brain, you see how dirty and shallow you are. Often clean water is at the top, if you get to the bottom, the dirt and sludge stirred and float to the top, now you can see that smell it and it is YOU. 

Hundred eighteen

Time is the fastest entity. Two days of my life disappeared before I realized. I am lazy and ambitious. This is not the right combination. But this is a fact. How to resolve this? till date, I haven't found a way out. These two personalities fight with each other and each day one would win. Therefore, some days I am very industrious and motivated and a few other days I am a lethargic, lazy and self-pitying person. On lazy days I have no reason for hard work. On a motivated day, I want to learn everything from art to physics. Well, today I realized this and looks like today "laziness" has won its day!

Hundred two

The new week has started. The secret of getting ahead is getting started. I posted this slogan on my hotel wall for 5 years and still, I often ignore this and do not start. Why we are so lazy. Or we evolved to conserve energy? Maybe. This is a very repeated thought keep coming to my mind and maybe I have already written about this. Looking away from a difficult situation than facing it is a common tendency. I neglect this and again I pull back and again do that. I need to do or face the task in a hand not bothered about a distant future

Ninety four

Now it is 12.20 pm. So I happily wasted half a day of the holiday. In the morning I was thinking great things to do, even tried to learn "The Maths". But by 10 o clock, I had become what I am! When you waste time, one strange thing happens, you feel like munching something unhealthy. I don't know why that happens. So I had planned a big heavy blog post such as what to do with life etc,, now I am letting it go, no more feel like writing heavy stuff. For the moment let me not fight with "the philosopher" side of brian I will be happy today being "the lazy". 

Ninety

Every one love simple life. But no one wants to live one. I found that simple living is tough. As I said earlier, thinking and doing are in two different domain of life. The connector that connects these two domains is lazy. I wanted to do a project like one lens one camera. I keep searching in the net what should be that camera and lens. I am not buying too many things and hence let me buy the costliest one. How about that? Fundamentally I don't prefer simple living but I love talking about it and I appreciate and say wow when others do. The weekend has started and I have a list of things to do. Today I have maintained the weekday routine till now and hoping that I don't find a new series on Netflix and do not watch cricket in the evening.

Sixty two

All life is a race. Shall I pause and enjoy or work hard and do something great? Why we want our names to be remembered forever? What drives a  few people beyond their limit. Aren't, they fool, not enjoying a the day to day life? Afterlife is over, you don't exist and whatever you achieve or don't achieve immaterial — plenty of confusion and controversy. Here I am, caught between a lazy philosophy and becoming a great philosophy.