Hundred forty seven

Here I am. Dragged me from YouTube. Morning is so nice and fresh. Still, I did not use that; I was feeling sleepy, and I found that a perfect excuse to waste time on the net. All of us know time is limited and still waste it. How do I convince my brain about the limited availability of time? All my life I have been reading self- improvement books and biographies hoping for a miracle that makes me successful. However, the definition of success keeps changing in each decade of life. Already a lot of time has been wasted and little has been done. I need to hurry. I am so afraid to keep a diary for food and time. 

Hundred fifteen

After the weekend, you are back to work. That day you feel so lethargic and frustrated. It is like you are loaded with a lead brick. One side of yours says work, work, and work. But the whole body just won't budge. This mixture of desire to and being lazy same time is a strange and dangerous mix. All I learned about this sate is that just allow the time to pass and you automatically become ok in 4 to 6 hours. There is no point in pushing yourself at that moment. 

Seventy one

Today was Holi, colour's festival. My daughter was too excited about it. She got up so early and was asking me, can we fast forward the time. What a question! A kid has all possibilities. When I was a kid, I was so sure that, one day I will see God, and wanted to ask for 3 boons. I was confused about what to ask, so I thought long and wrote down three boons and kept below the pillow. These infinite possibilities slowly disappear as they grow up. Older you get, more pessimistic you become. I need to find a way to be more optimistic and think like a kid. 

Forty Two

Do you need to take a risk in life? Or play safe? We also talk about calculated risk, oh that is not a risk. I am not a risk taker. But can I take the chance? I should make a decision. What, where, how I need to think. Taking risk itself is a risk. I have gone into too deep in the comfort zone in life. How do I come out? I need to set some tough targets? What are they? I plan, dream and I never venture into reality. Till I go out and try out something new, my life will slip away.

The sunk cost fallacy; I spent enough time and energy in this endeavour, and I make it work even though it is not working. I moved to a new home, after a lot of contemplating, my computer table is placed in the master bedroom. Now I realise that it was not the right place. But I don't want to move it to another room, I have made electrical connections, too big a table to move and I have convinced about this table to my "the wife". So even it is uncomfortable I am not changing it. It is true with few stocks I hold, I spent enough research on those stocks, I can't sell them. It is right for my new pair of jeans also, bought online, I am not liking fitting, but I paid a lot of money I should use it though it is very uncomfortable.
Oh, I need to get out of this.

Keep an eye on TIME